I SAID YES!

This is long overdue post..:)

After popping the question dated December 23, 2014, without blinking an eye, I said YES..

Yes!!!This is it...seryosong paghahanda na ang kailangan kong simulan.

We prepared for it financially by 2 years. Emotionally? many many many many years..:)

After the proposal, I'd done 2 month of research for our themes and motif. Search search and a lot of reading sa net. Grabe!..napakadaming magagandang ideas sa net and thru the Yahoo Group I joined, the W@W , Weddings at Work. the group exclusively for b2bs and h2bs. information overload!

And now, the first real preps. : will attend Bridal Fair @ SM Megamall on Sunday with my fellow b2b friends.

and from now on, i'll try to update my wedding preps thru this blog.

Happy Prepping to me and to all b2bs out there!..

God bless us all.

TO LOVE AND BE LOVED

Alam mo yung feeling ng in-love at?!!..
Yung everyday gusto mo sya makasama?
Yung atat ka na na mag-5:01pm para makauwi na at makita mo sya?
Yung at the moment when you wake up, nasa isip mo agad sya at nag-memessage ka na sa kanya?
Yung every night before you sleep, sya ang huli mong kausap to say goodnight?
Yung pakiramdam mo secured and safe ka when you are in his arms?
Yung feeling mo you are so pretty and sexy in his eyes?
Yung akala mo isa kang mamahaling alahas dahil ingat na ingat sya sayo?

Yan!Yan!yan exactly lahat lahat ng nararamdaman ko ngayon,
Ansarap!!!!...
I never felt this happy before.
Masaya talaga!
At 11 months ko nang nararamadaman ang heavenly-feeling na ito..:)
I super super duper thank GOD for bringing HIM in my heart.

And GOD, lulubus lubusin ko na po, I pray po na sana walang makakaputol ng kasiyahan na ito.
Na sana po we'll always bless with your LOVE and GUIDANCE.
Thank YOU po and Mahal na Mahal na Mahal na MAhal po kita.

At pakipaalala po sana lagi sa "kanya" na pinakamamahal ko din po sya.

THE SUNSET

February 9 2013.Saturday.

we met at Starmall Mandaluyong then headed to SM Mall of Asia Arena..
he's been courting me on and off for almost 12 years na..
and this time I'm desicided to give IT a TRY...

i am hesitant to accept his love because of caring to what others will say about us.
and thinking on what the reaction of grandmother will be.
if I'll JUST consider MYSELF, "oo" na agad agad isasagot ko..BUT iniisip ko din ang perception ng ibang tao, kaya may SAGABAL sa pagtanggap ko sa kanya.

Pero sabi nga nila, "LOVE CONQUERS ALL".
And that time I'm beginning to fall for HIM.
And I want to LOVE him.
And I want to make him HAPPY.
And I want my HEART to love and be loved.

The SUNSET at MOA Arena...

I am SOMEONE's SOMEONE on facing this SUNSET.

And that's it!!!..
I gave my YES to him while seeing the sunset, the Manila Bay, and the crabs on the rocks at bayside.:)
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I WANT TO BE SOMEONE'S SOMEONE.
and i am SOMEONE's SOMEONE starting on that day... #9

CHANCES ARE

As far as I remember, it was Christmas Day of 2000, I was in 2^nd year high school, when THE GUY first asked if he can court me.

And because I am the “great suplada” ever towards boys, I said NO!..:)

And the friendship we had, has gone and WALLS between us was build.

I didn’t talk to him.I made “no pansin” him.As in DEADMA!...

I focused on my studies. No communication between us.

And on my fourth year college, I had a boyfriend. A COMPLICATED relationship, I must say.

Those were my sweet and bitter moments of being in love.

Before Christmas break of 2007, I was in my 5^th year of college, I decided to stop the COMPLICATED relationship with the “boyfriend” because the situation really hurts me so bad.

And on the Christmas season of 2007, THE GUY texted me (don’t know how he had my number), asking how I’m doing and so on.

And because I am in the healing process of my heart, I replied.

Catched up with what happened for the last 7 years.

And thinking way back then that I can replaced THE BOYFRIEND with THE GUY in my heart, I went with THE GUY to the Church on New Year’s Eve.

We talked, he gave me chocolates. I enjoyed the time we were together, but SPECIAL FEELINGS didn’t grow.

Before classes resume on 2008, I told THE GUY that I can’t really teach my heart to love him the way he loved me. I said sorry and it ended there.

In school, THE BOYFRIEND and I got back to each other but after graduation, the relationship also graduated. IT ENDS. My world shattered. I am lost.

Luckily, a conversation with a friend brought me to reality.

I prepared and reviewed for the board exam and I passed. And then I worked.

On 2008, THE GUY and my high school friend, a close friend actually, were together.

On year 2011, even though they’re still together, THE GUY texted me that I’m the one who he really loves.

To avoid conflicts and confrontations, I don’t response on his text. And their relationship went on and off. 2012, they broke up.

On Christmas day of 2012, THE GUY texted me again. And realizing that he’d been keeping that FEELINGS for almost 12 years, I texted back.

And because this is the time that I want a constant companion, a “bestest” best friend, a confidante, a boyfriend, I entertained his text. And we keep on chatting ‘til now thru text.

And I don’t know if I’ll accept the LOVE he’s offering me. I’m happy when we’re texting.

But I can say that I don’t love him yet. Can my heart learn to love him?

The thing is, to the eyes of people surrounding me, I am an accomplished woman, an achiever.

And THE GUY?..he didn’t have a college diploma, no permanent job.

The PEOPLE expect me to have a partner who is in my LEVEL. Kind’a harsh?

And what about his former girlfriend who is my close friend?

As of this time, I don’t tell her the “courtship” of her ex to me.

But currently, she’s in a relationship now and I can say that they are fine.

So HELP ME LORD. Please Guide my HEART…

Chances Are………………………………….

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARCHITECT MAE!.. ^_^

yun oh..biruin mo yun..:))
Happy 27th birthday!!..hehehhe..:))

4th birthday na natin na magkasama tayo, lagi pa ding may bagyo..:)
and i'm so THANKFUL to have you in my life..
SALAMAT sa friendship..(at narealize kong dito na tayo lumaki sa Loxon..hehehe..)

You DESERVE all the BLESSINGS you have right now..
from your loving Husband (eheem eheeemm, Tomas, cornetto lang..), to your not-so-little BABY ZAUB..^_^

at answerte ko, dahil sa lahat ng mga mahahalagang kaganapan sa buhay mo eh, nandun ako, umeextra lagi..hehehehe..

WE'RE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER..
from Old Building to LPI Center to New Office, nandito pa din tayo.
From Estimate to Engineering, magkasama pa din tayo...
hanggang magkapareho na tayo ng middle name, ayaw pa din nating maghiwalay..
parehong usisera at pakialamera kasi..mas matapang ka nga lang sakin ng konti..hehehehe..:)

Hanggang pag-iba ba ng working environment, magkasama pa din tayo??!!!..wahahahahhaha.. JKL..

Minsan nakakamiss din yung magtsismisan ng mahabang oras,wahahahahha..Bring back the old days!!..:)) Ngayon kahit magkalapit na, bihira lang makapagtsika...Hehe...

I wish for your continued HAPPINESS (mas masaya pa) and more and more and more PATIENCE (alam mo na....hehe) sa lahat nang mga makukulit...

CHEERS for a lifetime FRIENDSHIP,HAPPINESS, and SUCCESS!!!...

Happy Birthday Ma'am Mae!!.. ;p

ANN VALERIE

exactly a year ago.that day was a very very HEARTBREAKING...:'(
really, one year had passed??..the PAIN, the HEARTACHES, the LONGINGNESS, the LONELINESS is still here...

until now, there's no answer to the question WHY.

everyday i think of you.
every night before i sleep, you are in my mind.
thank you for visiting me in  my dreams (can't count how many times i see you in my dreams).
the morning when i wake up, i imagined you watching your fave Disney channel shows.
on Saturdays,i miss your "pagpapakitang gilas", your chants, your songs, your dances.
i miss the times you were searching the ipod in my bag.
i miss to be called TATA.
everytime i hera the Selecta ice cream cart,i remember you.

I MISS YOU.

sabi nila, "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"..
yun lang, BAKIT??...hindi ko alam.
wala akong maisip na dahilan.

I MISS YOU.

one year ka na dyan, alam namin alagang alaga ka dyan nina Mama at Amang.
siguro madami ka na namang alam na kanta.
you're a good girl.
you're a charmer.
you were our JOY.
pero sabi nga lahat ng nandito,lahat ng meron tayo, pinahiram lang NIYA satin.
at yun.binawi ka na NIYA samin...

WE LOVE YOU AND WE MISS YOU EVERYDAY!...
you will be FOREVER in our hearts....

'til we meet again my ice cream buddy!...

cornetto!!!!

MOVE ON.MOVING ON.MOVED ON.

Before mag-end ang year 2011, sinabihan an ako ni DCV na pag-arapal ko ang structural calculations ng Curtain Wall para pag umalis si Herschell, ako na ang papalit sa position nya.

At that time, excited ako at na-fla-flatter dahil lelevel-up na ang magiging tawag sakin..:)

From being an ESTIMATOR to be a DESIGN ENGINEER. Wowwww!!!!...

Petiks peyiks lang ung training ko under Herschell.

But nung dumating na ang 2012, biglang nawala ako sa focus sa work lalo na nung times before Holy Week.

Sobrang tinamad na ko sa office.

Biglang parang nagsawa na ko sa pagpasok araw araw.

Sa paulit ulit na ginagawa.

AT first I thought na babalik din ung "GANA" ko sa trabaho pag full-time na ko sa design.

Pero nung nag-full time na ko, wala pa din ung gana ko nun.

Parang wala na yung PUSO ko sa pagtratrabaho.

Then nung May 26, lumipat na ko ng department.

HIndi ganun kasaya ang pakiramdam ko.

Missin' to be in HERE

With Jey.

Awww..:'(

Since then up to now alam ko sa puso ko na meron pa ring part of myself na parang umaayaw tanggapin totally ang CHANGES..

NA kaya lang ako nagtratrabaho dahil kailangan.

Sa dami ng trabaho, parang isip ko lang talaga ang gumagana, wala na yung PUSO.

Wala na yung PASSION.

Parang napipilitan na langa ko dahil sa mga submissions dahil sa deadlines.

Haaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy...

HIndi ko alam ang nagyayari sa sarili ko.

Parang may regrets tuloy ako kung bakit tinanggap ko 'tong trabaho na 'to...

I know YOU have PLANS for me.

Sana po ma-survive ko 'tong pakiramdam na to...

Sana po malagpasan ko ang lahat ng agam agam at mg apag aalinlangan ko po...

Tulungan NYO po akong magkaron ng liwanag at maayos na pakiramdam ang puso ko..

SALAMAT PO...