HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARCHITECT MAE!.. ^_^

yun oh..biruin mo yun..:))
Happy 27th birthday!!..hehehhe..:))

4th birthday na natin na magkasama tayo, lagi pa ding may bagyo..:)
and i'm so THANKFUL to have you in my life..
SALAMAT sa friendship..(at narealize kong dito na tayo lumaki sa Loxon..hehehe..)

You DESERVE all the BLESSINGS you have right now..
from your loving Husband (eheem eheeemm, Tomas, cornetto lang..), to your not-so-little BABY ZAUB..^_^

at answerte ko, dahil sa lahat ng mga mahahalagang kaganapan sa buhay mo eh, nandun ako, umeextra lagi..hehehehe..

WE'RE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER..
from Old Building to LPI Center to New Office, nandito pa din tayo.
From Estimate to Engineering, magkasama pa din tayo...
hanggang magkapareho na tayo ng middle name, ayaw pa din nating maghiwalay..
parehong usisera at pakialamera kasi..mas matapang ka nga lang sakin ng konti..hehehehe..:)

Hanggang pag-iba ba ng working environment, magkasama pa din tayo??!!!..wahahahahhaha.. JKL..

Minsan nakakamiss din yung magtsismisan ng mahabang oras,wahahahahha..Bring back the old days!!..:)) Ngayon kahit magkalapit na, bihira lang makapagtsika...Hehe...

I wish for your continued HAPPINESS (mas masaya pa) and more and more and more PATIENCE (alam mo na....hehe) sa lahat nang mga makukulit...

CHEERS for a lifetime FRIENDSHIP,HAPPINESS, and SUCCESS!!!...

Happy Birthday Ma'am Mae!!.. ;p

ANN VALERIE

exactly a year ago.that day was a very very HEARTBREAKING...:'(
really, one year had passed??..the PAIN, the HEARTACHES, the LONGINGNESS, the LONELINESS is still here...

until now, there's no answer to the question WHY.

everyday i think of you.
every night before i sleep, you are in my mind.
thank you for visiting me in  my dreams (can't count how many times i see you in my dreams).
the morning when i wake up, i imagined you watching your fave Disney channel shows.
on Saturdays,i miss your "pagpapakitang gilas", your chants, your songs, your dances.
i miss the times you were searching the ipod in my bag.
i miss to be called TATA.
everytime i hera the Selecta ice cream cart,i remember you.

I MISS YOU.

sabi nila, "EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"..
yun lang, BAKIT??...hindi ko alam.
wala akong maisip na dahilan.

I MISS YOU.

one year ka na dyan, alam namin alagang alaga ka dyan nina Mama at Amang.
siguro madami ka na namang alam na kanta.
you're a good girl.
you're a charmer.
you were our JOY.
pero sabi nga lahat ng nandito,lahat ng meron tayo, pinahiram lang NIYA satin.
at yun.binawi ka na NIYA samin...

WE LOVE YOU AND WE MISS YOU EVERYDAY!...
you will be FOREVER in our hearts....

'til we meet again my ice cream buddy!...

cornetto!!!!

MOVE ON.MOVING ON.MOVED ON.

Before mag-end ang year 2011, sinabihan an ako ni DCV na pag-arapal ko ang structural calculations ng Curtain Wall para pag umalis si Herschell, ako na ang papalit sa position nya.

At that time, excited ako at na-fla-flatter dahil lelevel-up na ang magiging tawag sakin..:)

From being an ESTIMATOR to be a DESIGN ENGINEER. Wowwww!!!!...

Petiks peyiks lang ung training ko under Herschell.

But nung dumating na ang 2012, biglang nawala ako sa focus sa work lalo na nung times before Holy Week.

Sobrang tinamad na ko sa office.

Biglang parang nagsawa na ko sa pagpasok araw araw.

Sa paulit ulit na ginagawa.

AT first I thought na babalik din ung "GANA" ko sa trabaho pag full-time na ko sa design.

Pero nung nag-full time na ko, wala pa din ung gana ko nun.

Parang wala na yung PUSO ko sa pagtratrabaho.

Then nung May 26, lumipat na ko ng department.

HIndi ganun kasaya ang pakiramdam ko.

Missin' to be in HERE

With Jey.

Awww..:'(

Since then up to now alam ko sa puso ko na meron pa ring part of myself na parang umaayaw tanggapin totally ang CHANGES..

NA kaya lang ako nagtratrabaho dahil kailangan.

Sa dami ng trabaho, parang isip ko lang talaga ang gumagana, wala na yung PUSO.

Wala na yung PASSION.

Parang napipilitan na langa ko dahil sa mga submissions dahil sa deadlines.

Haaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy...

HIndi ko alam ang nagyayari sa sarili ko.

Parang may regrets tuloy ako kung bakit tinanggap ko 'tong trabaho na 'to...

I know YOU have PLANS for me.

Sana po ma-survive ko 'tong pakiramdam na to...

Sana po malagpasan ko ang lahat ng agam agam at mg apag aalinlangan ko po...

Tulungan NYO po akong magkaron ng liwanag at maayos na pakiramdam ang puso ko..

SALAMAT PO...

DREAMS THAT WERE NOT SWEET..:(

di ko matandaan kung pano nagstart...
pero this year,mdalas akong bangungutin :(
yung feeling na alam mong gising ka pero alam mo ding nananaginip ka.
yung gustong gusto mong kumilos at imulat ang mga mata mo, pero sobrang hirap gawin dahil parang may malakas na pwersang pumipigil at parang mauubusan ka pa ng hiniga...
yung akala mong ginigising ka na ng Lola mo or ng kapatid mo,pero pagmulat mo,panaginip pa din pala (2 layers ang dreams??!!!!)

natatakot na ko...
sa isang gabi,minsan hindi lang isa or dalawa,kundi tatlong beses pa!!..
paggising ko,di ko ma-explain ang "panaginip" ko.
para talaga kong mamamatay dahil ang hirap huminga..

as of this writing,2:50am na ditom sa apartment.
sobra na kong inaantok pero ayaw ko pang matulog dahil natatakot ako.
wala pa yung mga kasama ko dito sa apartment.

sa bahay lang naman namin sa baras ko nararanasan yung bangungot.
Dito sa apartment,hindi naman at nawa'y hindi na mangyari yun.

Lord God, patawad po sa lahat ng mga pagkakamali ko.
Please, tulungan Nyo po ako para hindi na mangyari sakin ang mga ganung panaginip/bangungot.
NAKAKATAKOT po talaga.
Pagkalooban NYO po sana ako ng QUALITY SLEEP.
Thank YOU po...

HEARTBREAKING...:(

Yesterday,June 24,2012.Sunday. i wasn't able to go home due to overloaded WORK i need to be done and to be submitted today.

Arsh and Dennis messaged me earlier yesterday to watch the Ginebra game later that day.
Because i am so toxicated with work, i agreed to them. (agad!agad!)

After I had finished printing my submittals, i hurriedly prepare to meet Arsh. I was in the office from 9:30 am to 2:30pm.

I was so excited to watch the game,because it's my second time!!!..:))
First game was Meralco vs. Powerade..
Cool!!...All the basketball players are so cute and they have "kutis artistahin"...
They're cute!!!..


And the Meralco Bolts, in fairness, may "hakot" na "Orange Boys" equipped with banners and balloons..^_^

Meralco won over Powerade!!..
Finally the game of my "ka-barangay"!!..
Yeyy baby!!!...I am starstrucked!!!...

Masakit lang sa puso,kasi talo..huhuhuhuhuuhu..;((
on the last 23.8 seconds of the game, nakahabol na eh..
yang-sa talaga!!!..:(

di talaga para sa kanila ung game na yun..
haaayyy..sana manalo na sila sa Friday...
go for the SEMIS mga ka-barangay!!!...

NEVER SAY DIE!!!...

:(