FREEDOM!.. ^_^

it feels so good to be free!!!!.. 


free from PAIN (that I don't deserve!)
free from FEARS (that I will conquer)
free from WORRIES (that God will let me undestand that there's a reason for everything that happened in my life)
 free from NEGATIVE VIBES (that I will not entertain)


I am a big girl, a strong one.. 
I will not anyone or anything ruin me…
I will choose to be happy..
I will not let loneliness to kill me..
I have beautiful family and supportive friends to count on…


I am blessed..
I am gifted.. 
I am on the right trackl…


now, HAPPINESS, you are coming on my way!!...  

THE SONG OF MY HEART

if I'll be just true to myself, and if my heart can tell what I can't say,
the song "Oo" buy Up Dharma is the best song that will burst out all the feelings and all the contents of my heart..
I'd like this song before, I only realized just now that the lyrics of this song is actually what my heart wants to say..
and here it goes:

Di mo lang alam

Naiiisip kita

Baka sakali lang maisip mo ako

Di mo lang alam

Hanggang sa gabi inaasam makita kang muli

Nagtapos ang lahat sa di inaasahang pahanon

At ngayon ako'y iyong iniwan

Luhaan, sugatan, 'di mapakinabangan

Sana'y nagtanong ka lang

Kung 'di mo lang alam

Sana'y nagtanong ka lang

Kung 'di mo lang alam

Ako'y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Hindi mo lang alam

Kay tagal na panahon

Ako'y nandirito pa rin hanggang ngayon para sa'yo

Lumipas mga araw na ubod ng saya

'Di pa rin nagbabago ang aking pagsinta

Kung ako'y nagkasala patawad na sana

Puso kong pagal ngayon lang nagmahal

'Di mo lang alam

Ako'y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Puro s'ya na lang

Sana'y ako naman

'Di mo lang alam

Ika'y minamasdan

Sana'y iyong mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

'Di mo lang alam

Kahit tayo'y magkaibigan lang

Bumabalik ang lahat sa tuwing nagkukulitan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Ako'y nandito lang

Hindi mo lang alam

Matalino ka naman

Kung ikaw at ako

Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito

Ay dapat bang sumuko

Sana hindi ka na lang pala aking nakilala

Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito

Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko

'Di mo lang alam

Ako'y iyong nasaktan

Baka sakali lang maisip mo naman

Puro s'ya na lang

Sana'y ako naman

'Di mo lang alam

O, ika'y minamasdan

Sana iyo'y mamalayang hindi mo lang pala alam

Oooooooo

Malas mo

Ikaw ang natipuhan ko

Di mo lang alam

Ako'y iyong nasaktan

un na!..haaaayyy....

MY GUARDIAN ANGEL

I was born October 4, 1986 - Saturday.

My guardian Angel:

SAINT BARACHIEL – Archangel of Divine Providence

Barachiel is sometimes portrayed as carrying a large and full basket of bread, depicting another aspect of his heavenly responsibilities. The bread symbolizes the staff of life and thus Christian parenthood, with the absolute responsibilities (both spiritual and temporal) to bring into this world and to provide for the children God desires from married couples. In fertility and matrimonial concerns, he intercedes on behalf of childless couples and for those caught up in troubled marriages.

In his right hand, he carries a book, to remind mankind of the instructions in the Holy Scripture; these comprise of the writings of the saints and also Papal encyclicals for husbands, wives and children concerning marriage and family life.

To run parallel with prayer and family, he is the chief of the Guardian Angels. He is prayed to for all the benefits that all such guardians are believed to confer and will instruct the guardian angel of the prayer maker to intercede on that person's behalf.

Barachiel's day is Saturday.
His month is February
Zodiac signs are Scorpio and Pisces.
Rules the planet Jupiter.

A Prayer to St. Barachiel:

Oh Blessed St. Barachiel,
Obtain for us through your intercession,
The fullness of the graces of the most holy sacrament of matrimony.
Intercede for us most fervently,
In those moments of great duress and temptation,
When we are most unlikely to recall your power to intercede for us.
And that, through your benevolent love,
You may thwart the efforts and temptations of the evil one,
To harm wedlock, family and our faith.
Be the strength against our weaknesses.
Help us, our children and our faith to grow in the love of God, Jesus and Mary.

Amen.

I WANT,BUT I DON'T KNOW

this past few days, loneliness and emptiness is killing me…
don't know why… :( 


I want to be "real" happy...
don't know how…


I want to be in love and believe in love again...
don't know when…


I want to have someone who'll show me how to be loved..
don't know who..


I want to go to my "happy place"
don't know where..  

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INANG!..

30 December 2010

72 years…

on your 72 years in this world,


thank you for the 25 years of being a mother and father to our Mama and to our 5 titas…
thank you for the 27 years of being a dear grandmother to us, your 22 apos…
thank you for 3 years (as of now) of being a mother to me and to my 6 other siblings…
thank you for 4 years of being a great grandmother to your 8 "apo sa tuhod" , (and another two is expected on 2011)…

thank you for that and this is to more and more and more years to come!!!!!.....

you were just misinterpreted by others but to us, you are the only strength we have right now…
we are so grateful to you for being with us at all times…

wag po sana kayong mag sawa sa pag aasikaso samin…
pagpasensyahan nyo na po ang katigasan ng ulo ng inyong mga apo…
sorry po sa lahat ng pagkukulang namin sa inyo…

may GOD continue to bless you with good health and long life!!!...


gusto ko pong makita nyo at makarga nyo ang magiging apo nyo sa tuhod sakin.. ^_^


HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY INANG!!!..


we love you!!..

I HATE MYSELF

i thought okei na ko..
di pa pala ganon ka okei..
may konti pang kurot.


pero manageable namna..(?!)


bakit kc ganun, pag pumapasok sa icp ko, parang may part ng utak ko na gusto pa.
pag nag rereminisce ako, bakit my part ng puso ko na gustong bumalik.


pero i know namna na di na pede, wala na talga..


alam ko tanggap ko na eh..bakit gumugulo ulit?/!!!!..


naiinis na ko sa sarili ko ah..


hey self!!!!!!..okei na tayo diba??..ilang beses na taung nag usap regarding on this matter right??...wala na, alam mo un, tama??..oh bakit ngaun eh nagugulo ka na naman??...


relax lang ha...kinakaya mo namna diba..sabi mo u totally moved on na?u'r completely healed na?..
stop clinging to unfinished matters...
WALA NA!..


let's get it on!!!!!!!!..


HAPPINESS girl, u'll soon have it, or are u having it na??..


Apir!!!!!!...

I LOVE YOU

A warning.

An apology.

An interruption.

A plea for attention.

An objection.

An excuse.

A justification.

A reminder.

A trap.

A blessing.

A disguise.

A revelation.

A surrender.

An opening.

An end.